How do we plug the holes in our hearts. The self inflected, earth stopping, plasma needing, holes. There are holes from those taken from us. The holes created by relationships ending. Sometimes the holes plug with scabs or sutures or whatever. They always rupture open again.
The worst part of it my holes are all self inflicted. I can suffer alone. I have learned to manage or exist over the years. I am feeling really guilty though about my daughter. I have screwed up my finances. Each trip to see her is at least $300. I have to rent a car and hotel rooms add up.
Karma is a bitch. No matter how we try, we can't escape our Karma. Like I said, I deserve what I have sown. My eleven year old daughter, my beautiful little girl, didn't.
Today is Easter. My Dad said he had a rough day today. He's not a religious man. He said the Holidays are rough. I can't imagine the hole in his heart. I can't imagine losing your wife of forty five years.
peace
dumbdavid
