Day two

Okay it's day two of the Lexapro experiment. I will not worry about effectiveness for some time. It takes a while to take effect. I hate weather. Mpls. got one inch of snow and we got at least 4" it seems. It is still blowing and drifting.

Continuing on the subject of the movie Wit. I have known several people with cancer over the years. Only one of them died, Kristi Pender. I am not sure if that is spelled correctly I forgot to double check before I left home. She was a nurse I worked with several times at HCMC. She disappeared not too long after I had started working in the ER. A long time later she came for a visit. She was wearing a scarf around her head to cover her baldness. Kristi looked very sick. I suddenly realized why I hadn't seen her. It wasn't very long after this visit I saw her obituary in the Star and Tribune. She never married. Kristi seemed like one of those genuinely nice people. It was so unfair that she died and I had to deal with such animals at the hospital. Let's all say it, "Life's not fair."

I woke up at 4am for no reason today. My butt is dragging now after cleaning off the steps. My neighbors cleared my sidewalks for which I am grateful. I met a local police officer at coffee. We have had a couple short conversations at coffee. His wife always meets him on break. I saw him parked as I came to the library. I stopped and asked him about the snowmobile ordinances. The kids[darn them] are riding in my yard. I am an old fart now. I wouldn't care but they ripped through my neighbors and tore up his grass where the snow was thin.

Peace

dumbdavid

Rise up

Okay, start Lexapro, schedule counseling, contact lawyer, and hate the snow. It was a busy day. Dr. Steve was pretty cool. He is the local FAA Dr.

Watching the movie Wit. Main character has cancer. She remarks about her isolation. She had preferred research to human contact. I have preferred my cocoon to actual living. Can't get hurt in my bubble. Can't really breathe either. Five years holding my breath. How long can you hold your breath?

Peace

dumbdavid

Black Friday

Well I have been away for over a year again. I am sitting in a Caribou having a large Lacuna coffee. I am bored out of mind too. I have been off work for over two months on workers comp now. My pay situation is all screwed up too.

I have decided to start writing here again. I am on Facebook but don't feel as revealing or open to share there. I have always liked the mostly anonymous nature of this blog. I miss the old original dumbdavid blog I use to write. That site went under so I slid over here.

The recent past has shown definite signs of sliding backwards. I have been speaking to an old re-discovered friend. We both agree that I should start back in counseling and taking anti-depressants. I have an appointment for Monday with a new doctor. I haven't found a counselor yet I am waiting for a referral. I am debating of sharing this information with my father too. He is such a worrier. He never hears things correctly. He assumes the worst especially with Mental Illness. We have several family friends that have either depression or bi-polar. My dad being from the older generation only goes on his own observations. He doesn't know what a struggle it is.

Well I am signing off for today. Things are looking better except for money.

Peace

dumbdavid