She hates me!!

     Well, I guess I knew it would happen eventually.  My daughter hates me.  I figured with enough exposure to her mother she would be turned against me.  I chose to move here to watch out for my father.  I have "abandoned" her I guess.  She said last night, "I don't want to be your daughter anymore, because you don't treat me like one anyways!"   Cue tears.  WTF!  I have given this girl everything I possibly can except a car and a trip to Costa Rica.  She just sprang this on me Thursday night.  I said I would like to but don't have the 175.00  needed.  She gave me no lead time.  Just like usual for her.  Well now I am the worlds worst father.  It's fucked up.  I know T. blames my girlfriend for everything.  I was alone for eleven years.  Now, I finally find the person I want to spend the rest of my life with and T. is upset.  It's bullshit.  I love my daughter but this is too much.   I worked too hard to get sober to have her ruin it.  I am not going to wreck my current life because she and her mother are immature.  I said my Serenity prayer last night in front my girlfriend.  She was so supportive.  She asks nothing of me but love.  It's the way it's supposed to be.

Lack of sleep and the Urologist

I am having a hard time getting enough sleep.  My "step" grandson G. is making lots of noise while his mother ignores him while I try to sleep each day.  I have had sleeping problems since my last house.  I only get about five hours each night.  Now, I am sick with a cold and a Urinary Tract infection, my second one.  I have an appointment with the Urologist in October.  I have most of the symptoms for BPH and prostate cancer too.  Hopefully it's just an enlarge prostrate and not the other outcome.    It would really be unfair if I had to deal with that now.  Not to mention how expensive the treatments would be.  It would be unfair for R. to deal with also.    Well that's all for now.  The court battle with my employer may be finally over.