Beliefs, Believe?
How can I explain what I don't understand, except that I do believe. I don't understand, yet respect your beliefs, or non beliefs. I don't believe in organized religion any more. I have seen too much corruption by man in the name of God, Allah, false idols, liars, and thieves. I just believe in God, a higher power. Maybe I am diluted to think there is some Omnipresent being. I have seen things that break most men's beliefs by the horrors that happen in this world. The pain and suffering of mankind is mind boggling. The random acts of tragedy that still happen every single day. How can there be meaning to this.
I count certain things I find as acts of God. I have no other explanations. The birth of my child, Love in its many forms, and my sobriety. Certainly biology could explain birth, but not the birth of my child. The fact that I reproduced, especially after my life experience, then marry my ex, stacked the cards against this event happening. But it did happen, I witnessed this wonderful event. Love, I have experienced far more than I probably deserved. I am now remarried to a woman who loves me. I can't explain it but it is real, right now.
Sobriety, I have fifteen almost sixteen years now of sobriety. I would never have believed this when I entered that first AA meeting. I didn't sober up alone, by my own power. It took a higher power, sending me Angels in the form of other drunks, to help me get sober. Still I am fighting the battle of addiction and disbelief. I guess all that matters is that I believe. I can't control anyone else thoughts or actions.
Do you believe? Does it matter?
Peace
dumbdavid
