So I will probably have to talk to my Dad regarding J. tomorrow. I am worried about how it will go. I for see only bad outcomes. Dad's negativity sometimes is a pain in the ass. Tomorrow it will be a a serious obstacle. I wish I didn't have to do this but he has pushed the issue forward. How do you make someone understand something which they have so much irrational fear towards. He's an old man from a different generation. I wish Mom was here to help. I think she might understand but I don't know. She's been gone for nine years now so it's hard to remember how her feelings on the subject would be. I have some inkling but nothing definitive.
I am afraid Dad will keep bringing this subject up in the future. That it will be an ongoing thorn in his side. It would be just like him to expend an excess amount of worry over something that really has nothing to do with him. I have run the conversation through my head several times now. I can anticipate his questions/ comments. It's so stressful for me. I feel so bad for J. that I have caused more stress for him. I guess will have to recite the Serenity prayer a bunch of times. I can only control my thoughts and actions, no one else's.
peace
dumbdavid
