New Digs

Well, I actually had to switch rooms where I live. I rent a studio apartment and the one I was in had crumbling tiles in the bathroom. I upgraded to a larger one that is in a one level building that also holds the office. I don't have any upstairs neighbors anymore. It is very quiet, thank god. I was going crazy with my neighbors is the old place.

Somebody called my father and asked to speak to my mom. She has only been dead eight months. Fucking bill collectors, I know some collections company is after an old medical bill. We had people calling for a long time after my brother died too. It was really hard on my parents then. I could tell it had upset my father. I can't imagine taking the calls myself.

I was thinking of going down to see my daughter right before Christmas since her birthday is then too. I have decided to wait until after Christmas. I think it is more important to be with my father. I don't think he should sit alone on Christmas day since it's the first one since Mom died.

Something odd happened when I called my daughter tonight. My ex answered the phone and spoke shortly with me. She is remarried and has an almost two year old with new husband. L. [the child] must of been close to my ex when she answered my call. Ex asked if I would mind talking to L. since she wanted to talk on the phone. I said no and said hello to L. She didn't actually speak but it was odd. It made me think about if I had stayed with ex how many more children I might have. L. is fun to see grow because I miss that time when my daughter was younger. She is great now too. We get to have great conversations now. I don't like having to explain the hard parts of life to her but I realize it is necessary.

I am tired and must go back to work tomorrow after two days off. Moving yesterday wore me out.

peace

dumbdavid