What me worry?

Always loved Mad Magazine growing up.

I worry, a lot. I internalize a lot of my feelings. Especially feelings that are stressful. I am use to hiding stuff from my dad so he doesn't worry. I think it may appear that I am carefree regarding my work situation. It is scary thinking about not returning to work because of my elbow. I will probably have to move. Yet I can't lift anything for quite some time. Movers are expensive, deposit and first months rent are expensive. Moving in with my dad would ruin the relationship I have worked so hard to nurture the last five years. I would end up resenting his negativity. It would create a overly stressful situation where I might want to drink. That is not an option for me.

I worry about this beautiful new person in my life. I worry the garbage of my past life will ruin things. I try to grow and put stuff behind me. I can't deny my alcoholism, I won't. It's part of me forever. I can't seem to shake the financial instability. Divorce is hard. When my decree was signed I was immediately 3 thousand dollars behind on child support. It took me a long time to catch up. I have been current for several years. I am not rich. I will probably not ever going to be rich. I accept my situation and I do worry about it. Probably too much.

peace

dumbdavid