Not just a movie starring Gwyneth Paltrow and Jake Gyllenhaal. It covers the subject of mental illness as it affects a brilliant mathematician and his daughter. I am from a family that suffers addiction, depression, and an assortment of dysfunctional behaviors. I have suffered from depression and addiction myself. Does that sound weird? It is hard to talk to women about my past. They all get the scared look in their eyes when I describe my past. I understand though.
What is normal? We all are scary and damaged. It's just a trick to find someone who is scary and damaged but fits with you. I unfortunately am honest about my baggage. I think there is a lot of denial. I know something about denial. I spent twenty years in alcohol denial. I denied my depression as I was comfortably numb. I didn't feel anything I just killed the pain.
The body responds to pain in different ways. There is a disorder where one pulls one's hair out. It is called trichotillomania. The action of pulling out the hair at the root causes endorphins to be released. I used to pull the hairs out of my moustache. Sometimes, when I am really stressed I find myself still doing it.
I have never told anyone this.
What are your issues?
Or, are you in denial too?
peace
dumbdavid
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