Less Than Zero

I just watched Less Than Zero. I know my blog seems to revolve around my reactions to movies. It is sometimes the only way I access/understand what's going on inside this thick skull.

Robert Downey Jr. plays Julian, a crack addicted twenty year old in the late 80's L.A. scene. He ends up dying of an overdose. Downey is just amazing in is ability to translate the devastation of drugs. He also channeled backed a lot of memories of my brother back.

I can keep the feelings and pain buried for so long and then it pokes it head out again. It's been twenty eight years now. The pain exploded through tonight like it was yesterday. I feel sick to my stomach and I want to curl up. I want to get drunk too. That's the weirdest part of it.

I'd give anything to see my brother again. I would like to kick his ass for all the pain he gave my parents and me. I wish I could hug him because I never did. Watching someone kill themselve's with drugs, I can't explain it.

Anyways. Scott I miss you, and I love you.

peace

dumb david