Well I am sitting at home not connected to the internet. I wanted to catch my feelings fresh. Elliot Smith is spinning on CD. I was reading through my old dumbdavid entries from diaryland. It's funny how much has not changed in 9 years. Eileen broke up with me and I thought I would move on and grow. I figured 6 years was too long the last time but hey I guess not. I am not in love still with Eileen. It's just obvious I am still screwed up. It's probably the reason I can't get involved with anyone. I must reek of failure or low self esteem. I see it staring back in the mirror.
I watched a documentary tonight called Restrepo. It's about a platoon in Afghanistan. It made me reminisce about my time in the Air Force. I know I have had success in my life. I am not a total failure. It's just the major mistakes I have made that stick out like cactus thorns. The wounds I have left behind in my wake. Whoa, David's having a pity party.
I'm sorry good reader. I just wanted to be honest tonight. That was the whole point of this blog. Open my guts up and not repress my feelings. If I offend, I apologize. Tomorrow the water will run off my back and I will feel a little better. Tonight I spew. Blech@!!!
Peace
dumbdavid
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