I just finished watching Hope Floats again with Sandra Bullock. She has a daughter in the movie who is a little younger than mine. Sandra and her husband in the movie are separated and going through a divorce. The daughter has a big emotional scene when her father comes to visit. She tries to leave with him[against his wishes]. He is selfish a rejects her. The girl breaks down in a horribly painful way. It sucks to watch as an absent father.
I hardly see my daughter now. It's been almost a month again since I saw her. I call her once a week. We talk for less than five minutes each time. She is growing up and I am blowing it. I feel trapped where I am.
I feel bad because I wish for my inheritance. I could move down near her again then. I am too poor to do it otherwise. I sometimes wish I had never moved up here. I have grown to know my father more since I moved here. I have lost some of my relationship with my daughter that I will never get back.
My daughter deserves a better father. I need to man up and find a solution to this problem. I am also worried that recurring sadness is creeping back in. I have noticed I am down a lot more recently. My dad has even commented on it. I am at a loss for answers. None seem to be coming either. My car is dying and I can't afford another one. What to do?
peace
dumbdavid
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