Hurts so good.

Thanks JCM. I am tired and sore. I think it's official. We are a couple. I am looking forward to after work tomorrow morning. I am really tired tonight. R. woke me with a text tonight. What a nice way to wake up. I teased her a little but I was very happy to hear the tone from my phone. This has been an amazing weekend. There was only one small snag with mr. happy. Or as he is know known, mr. I don't show it up when needed. Well, we have to the technology, ie. chemistry to fix that. R. is right about one thing. How do we sit on break without acknowledging what has happened between us. I told her I supported what she wanted regarding work and our relationship. The company is just like a high school. People talk to much. I have been guilty too. I just don't want R. to face any unwanted Just found Jerry Macguire on cable. The speech is coming soon. How about the night was nearly complete because he couldn't share it with Renee. I immediately think about R. I told her this morning in bed, "you were hiding in plain sight." We have take so so long to get here in our life. We just weren't ready to be together. Her road sounds like it was rough like mine. I cried in front of her this morning unexpectedly. I was talking about one of the last conversations I had with mom. I just choked up and couldn't go on for a second. The look of compassion and empathy in her eyes meant so much to me. I have one big concern. It's all about me. I haven't been able to talk about my drinking. Last night she was drinking a beer when I got to her house. Some new fancy Budweiser. I wanted one so bad. I drank my dew instead. I am terrified about what happens when I tell her. Will she accept me then. I think so but don't know. The speech is on. The night wasn't complete because he couldn't share it with her. "You complete me." I guess that says it all.

Peace

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