Waiting to exhale

Well, I am waiting and hoping she texts tonight. I think she will. We have exchanged texts today. I found her jewelery that she forgot here. I wonder if it was accidental or on purpose. I think it was accidental. I told my friend C. about last night. She was very happy for me. She did tell me she drank last night. I felt bad for her. She complains about it but isn't quite ready to stop. I wish I could do something to help her but there is nothing I can do. Back to R. My lips hurt. For real! It must have been about a thousand kisses last night. They seemed so soft last night. I am so tired. So where do we go from here. I am writing because I don't know. It's exciting because I know nothing about her. I get to discover each new thing about her and her me. I am deeply worried about one thing. Last night the subject of alcohol didn't come up. She didn't drink during supper. Also, her ex husband is a wicked drunk. He hasn't had a DL for 20 years because of DWI's. Thankfully it didn't come up. I feel like I am lying by not sharing my alcoholism with her. Part of me wants her to know up front. Before it gets so serious that either one of us gets hurt. I guess I will wait. It's not like I am drinking. It will come up eventually. I hope she will understand. So last night we laid together. All night. Just holding each other, kissing and stuff. We drifted off to sleep then woke up in each others arms to start again. Her breathing and sounds really are animated. Quite thrilling to experience her reactions to my touch. I can hardly wait to be alone with her again. I wish we didn't have to go back to work tomorrow night. This summer will be tough. She will be busy. I will have to be patient. Inquiring minds want to know. When to make the facebook relationship status change. Standing by.

Peace

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