Landslide

Well, officially we are a couple. The letter I gave R. this morning caused a landslide of emotions. I see it in her eyes. She wants to say it. R. is overwhelmed with everything. I am too. I thought I could move slowly. Her tears this morning brought tears to me. Emotion is swelling up within me. I fight the urge to move forward. To be open and experience what is in front of me. The way R. looks at me. The love is in her eyes even if she can't say it. She holds me and I feel great. Now, she is gone on her trip to her parents. I miss her so much. These last two days were even better than the ones before. We sat as a family eating dinner. Her daughter is great. Our two roads have merged into one. I can't deny my feelings. And yet the fear is still present. I think R. has the same thing. Fear. I have been hurt so much. This keeps getting better. I know I have had similar experiences before. I wish I could say that this time it will last. I guess that's the real thing. You don't know. You have to have faith. Trust. Love is not a timid emotion. I don't want to be the first to say it. We keep hinting at it. Love is sprinkled in other sentences. "I love your...." Like little tests. A toe in the water. I am so glad I gave R. the letter this morning instead of letting her read it alone. We will be as one. One thousand kisses gave way to a new future.

Peace

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