Grey Eagle

     R. and I have driven twice now to Grey Eagle to retrieve her property.  Today her ex was there.  It's his land.  He was nice enough to deposit her belongings in the back 40 with the wood ticks and mosquitoes.   Today he threw a tantrum like a two year old.  Because she left he wants her car gone and engine he was supposed to be done rebuilding gone.  I think he volunteered to do this by July 4th but is no where near finishing.  The car was drivable so we brought it back here.  We had no means available to haul an engine.  So we will have to make arrangements.  He is also being nice enough to charge her for storage of car and property since she left.  What a jerk.  He was all nice to me introducing himself.  He has me by an inch or two and twenty pounds.  He is a putz though.

     I was glad I was there today.  At first it seemed like everything would be smooth sailing.  The tide turned fast just like the weather.  I watched peripherally at the action to make sure everyone played nice.  It was just like when I was a cop.  Except this time I was a participant instead of just a referee.  We have to go back again tomorrow to pick up R. daughter.

     R. and I keep growing closer and closer.  Today was the first time I have seen her upset.  I was glad it wasn't me she was mad at.  I learned that a persons word means a lot to her.  She told me what a great man I am.  I feel like a little bit of an imposter.  I am good man but not great.  I told her I have faults.  I do.  She has no clue about my money problems.  I have made so many mistakes.  She keeps telling me how lucky she feels to have found me.  I am the lucky one.  I never thought this would happen.  I had lost hope.  I thought I would be alone forever.  I think it took so long for me to heal and discover who the real David is.  I have found this gratitude and acceptance for who I am.  I have normal weaknesses  but I have the one great strength.  I have a large heart.  R. told me so.  I always knew it.  It's scarred and damaged but still beating.  I have so much love to give and R. will receive it.  She deserves it. 

     R. described why the relationship failed with K.  Religion of all things.  Those darn Catholics.  How could you let someone so great as R. go because she won't convert.  I accept R. totally.  I know I can't change her and wouldn't if I could.  We are here now because of everything that has passed.  Our paths crossed and blended into one.  That's all that matters.

Peace

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