Well, last night the world got shaky. I told my daughter I moved in with my girlfriend R. My daughter sounded upbeat and positive on the phone. Of course, a half hour later my ex called me. Turns out all is not good in Whoville. I found out it's the same thing with her. She feels like she is not wanted or part of the family here. I hung up the phone with her and the first thought I had was drinking. I wanted to come inside and drink some beers. I wanted to feel that numb fog. I was torn between telling R. about these feelings. She could clearly see how upset I was. She held me and told me we would work through it. She is awesome. I had to tell her. Her daughter was also supportive sitting there witnessing my reactions. I asked her to step out of the room so I could talk to R. I told R. about my drinking thoughts. I want to be honest with her. She knows the past I bring. She just covers me with love and support. We will work through this. I will call my daughter today and work this out. E. has offered to share her bedroom with T. That is so huge. I feel like an intruder here still. It's home for me now but I am still waiting to be told to get out. I think this time it's right. We are the perfect match I think. I believe it's real this time. Hopefully my daughter will adjust. It wouldn't be fair if she didn't. I love them all. Please let it work out.
Peace
dumbdavid
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