Sleep deprivation

I worked last night for the large tape manufacturer. I returned home an hour early due to our production line being down. I only slept one hour and woke up. I looked at the clock without my glasses and thought it was 1pm. This is a normal time for me to get up after nightshift. I went and took a shower feeling like I hadn't slept. I looked at the clock again as I finally got dressed, 7:30am. Ooops. I keep a blanket over the window so it is easier for me to sleep. I was wide awake after the shower so I just stayed up. I am trying to stay up tonight to stay in sync with night schedule but it's hard. My mood always drops when I am really tired or crashing from lack of sugar or caffeine. I gave up drinking five years ago and now I am a sugar junkie. I guess it is a common problem with heroin users but I thought coffee and smokes were the only vice of the aa crew. Ha!

I haven't gone to AA in over a year because of numerous factors. The big one is the time committment. That big moral inventory of step 4 is a bitch too. I have been moving too much and working too many hours to have any consistent routine. I have only been tempted right when my mother died in April. I guess I am too afraid of what would happen if I drank again. I was lucky to stop when I did. Did I mention it is winefest on the Mosel river in Germany. What a wonderful reason to sit down and celebrate. Like the Germans needed another one. The Air Force was brilliant sending a problem drinker to a country where every weekend there is a festival, holiday, something to get drunk for. I am rambling.

I will leave you with the lyrics from George Thorogood, "When I drink alone, I prefer to be by myself....."

peace

dumbdavid